First Monday without OP…
I woke up this morning and like every morning for the past 5 months, I checked my gmail account to see how many posts are there for me to chase. (smile) Then, I went online to say my greeting… made a few comments before heading out the door to go to work. The only difference this morning was… I didn’t need to go dl anything, didn’t need to search frantically to see if the new OP was available yet and didn’t have to sit there and wait for the dl to finish so I can watch it before I leave the house. Upon arrival at work, (super busy!) my concentration was fully on attacking the problems of the day. My mind didn’t dwell on OP until one of my coworkers said to me, “ 哎呀, 而家畢打做完大結局, 個人好似好空虛咁...唔知點咁..冇野睇!” I was at lost for words for a few seconds there and finally smiled and said, “係囉！ 做完，而家冇野睇!” Then I quickly walked back to my desk and sat down feeling just a tad depressed. Thank goodness this conversation took place at the end of the day. My only comfort is thinking to myself… every obsession runs a natural course… just let it be.
My last obsession…
I think the last time that I was so “immersed” into something was when I first started to learn how to sing 粵曲. That addiction lasted… 15 years until I moved to Las Vegas. I barely touched it in the last 5 years. Yes, my connections are still there and if I choose to, I can go to Los Angeles, San Francisco or even Vancouver to have a fling with it again. I love Cantonese Opera, I always have. It’s really funny and even hilarious to my sorority sisters and high school friends because I am truly an All American Girl in their eyes! Little did they know that deep inside, I had wanted that “Chinese” connection. Hey,plus the 成功 and 虛榮感 are incredible! (If any of you are reading this… ignore it… just let me rattle and prattle) Thinking back to that very first time… when I stood on that little stage at the club and was literally dragged up there to sing half of a 10 minute song … 香夭. 撞板，走音，面紅，手心濕…樣樣齊! But the gauntlet was thrown (plus I really do love 粵劇) and the challenge was there for me to seize the opportunity to really learn a Chinese cultural art form. Thru this challenge, I was lucky to have met 女姐，羅艷卿，朱秀英，馮華，劉兆榮，鄧美玲，衛駿英, 等等. I even sang with 尹光! We sang “合兵破曹”Which was funny because he is so… brave! Dang, he didn’t know the song that well… and still he put up a good show though and gracious enough to sing with an amateur like me… now, I have to add… it wasn’t my idea! My favorite is still “龍鳳爭掛帥之洞房”, it was a lot of fun and also my last performance. So… the experiences and lessons that I went thru and learned in those 15 years really are amazing. The biggest gratification that I got was giving back to the community and perpetuating this form of art to the younger generation and non-Chinese audiences.
Ps: Just in case you’re wondering… if you’re wondering what I think you’re wondering… the answer is…
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