May 7th… letting go

 

I’ve walked away for 8 years now… should I relive the craziness for one weekend?  I am hesitant to even open my instrument case just in case all those memories come rushing back.  Sounds like Pandora’s box doesn’t it?  Maybe it is but then maybe it’s not.  I don’t know… things and feelings have changed so much in the last seven years.  My last participation in a performance was in 2004 at the Hawaii Theater for Chinese New Year.  Then in June, I walked away from it all.  I always wondered whether I was still clinging to those years when I’ve always turned down the offers to buy my saxophones.   I can’t believe they still want me to play… am I crazy or is it them?