Pink roses for a friend… you will always be special.

Contradicting myself once again, pink roses… I love them.

Split personality? Or maybe I am emotionally and physically drained right now. Reflecting this past weekend, I have come to a crossroad of some sorts. Having put a television series that have ended in February in the past, the characters that graced the screen are now, only happy memories. The next step…

A couple of weeks ago, I posted one sentence, “An Outsider”. Thanks to many, I was comforted to the point of embarrassment. Understanding their good intentions made me felt even worse. The attention should have never been on me. They probably had much more of a headache than I do. Never one to wallow in self pity for long, I seriously decided that it was time to move on but… I couldn’t let go… It’s quite a mystery. People whom I have never met and even if I brushed against them on some street, I wouldn’t know them but I feel an affinity to them.   Through laughter and tears, we spent close to nine months together, developing tenuous bonds of friendships over the web.  Then this weekend…

A friend said goodbye… my face was wet and the tears wouldn’t stop.  Not knowing the reason and wasn’t going to pry, I was at lost.  Reading the email was just so heartbreaking, not understanding but accepting and respecting the decision were the only things that I could do.  Once again, realizing the term… 緣來緣去 is very prophetic. 

Now the storm seems to have gone out to sea… hopefully, never to come back and the sun will shine and the stars will twinkle once more.